Okay before I go to bed, this short paragraph is dedicated for Magdeline. :)

I was really &extremely touched when I received your message which contained 9pages. Because firstly, we ain’t extremely close with the fact that I only got to know you like 3weeks back? Secondly, we used to dislike each other because of some reasons. And thirdly, very few people would make the effort to send me such a long message, to the extent of 9pages. So…. I was really touched!!

Thanks so much for being concerned. I guess I need more time to get over him and move on.. Sometimes, it just ain’t easy. Anyway, may you last long with your boyfriend, hope he’ll cherish you. :) XOXO.

Off to bed. Goodnight all…

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I can’t believe that I actually stayed up late to see if you’re online.. I’ve never intended talking to you though.. If I could stare @ the screen and just wait till you go offline, I’m contented alr. The fact that you could add 10girls at one go hurts me extremely much. Sigh, how long is this gonna go on… I miss being happy..

It’s going 4am right now. Shall finish this post and go to bed soon! Work @ Marina Square on Tuesday was awful with a capital A. I dislike the people there very much.

After work, I headed back to GWC after that to meet Lixian, Magdeline &Peimin. Then we decided for an extremely long time before we settled our dinner @ Pizza Hut. The four of us were making so much noise there, commenting on their service etc. Enjoyed their company alot, it kinda reminds me of those good ol’ times with girlfriends. :)

After that……. we shopped around and got stuffs that we wanted. :) Then we decided to head home @ around 10pm. The girls were almost half dead, HA. Bus-ed home after that and reached home @ coming 12am.

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Intended to meet Magdeline &Peimin in the afternoon since I’m not working today. But ended up, Bret called and asked if I could take over one of the staff there. Was hesitating @ first, but since Lixian is working alone, I decided to give up on my off day. Changed &cab down after that. Worked till 10pm and bus-ed home.

In a few hours time I’ll be meeting Lixian to get our long wanted stuffs, and I’ll be heading to work in the evening. And on Friday, I’ll be meeting Ziyu in the morning to catch NewMoon, and meeting Edward &co to catch a midnight movie. Alrighty, shall blog again soon. Bye all.

Thanks Lixian for listening to me last night.. Really thanks alot for being there. Loveyou <3

Off to work @ Marina Square right now. After that will be meeting Lixian, Peimin &Magdeline for dinner. Bye all.

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Speechless, disappointment, heartache.

Give me time. One day I’ll no longer feel anything when I see you adding such a large amount of girls.

I’m sorry for being such a failure girlfriend of yours in the past. After hearing those stuffs yesterday, I told myself I’ll never allow myself to get back with you. Because I finally realised perhaps you’ve never felt happy when we were together.. I really assumed that I’ve done enough.. But it just seemed like I was never good enough for you no matter how much I try.. Sometimes I wished we’ve never been together. That way, perhaps you’d care for my feelings like how you care for other girls…

Now, I’m sincerely wishing you happiness. Cos I know your next girlfriend would be a better one, at least, a hell lot better than me. I believe you’ll be better off without me, and happier with her. I’m terribly sorry for being the worst girlfriend on earth. All I hope now is you’ll still think of me when you see the stuffs I’ve bought for you, the hundreds of long letters that were hand written by me.

I’ll never allow us to get close again, I’ll keep my feelings for you in my heart and wish you all the best. This time, I really won’t have anything to do with you again..

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I need to talk to someone so badly right now.. Yet Idk who can I turn to.. I wanna be strong, I wanna move on. But it’s not easy at all..

Met Sylvia for dinner @ Yuki Yaki after work last evening. :)

The food was a lil disappointing cos I expected more. Still preferred Hotpot culture though. Anyway, we were laughing so much cos of her jokes. Then we left the restaurant with a bloated stomach and we walked around in Suntec. That nice girl accompanied me to take the bus after that. Thanks BF! I really enjoyed myself though it was a short 5hours. I saw _’s pic btw. Quite handsome, just that the eyes are kinda small. HA, hang out again soon. Loveyou!

Off to work now…. Bye all.

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I saw you being like how you used to again.. Felt heartache, felt like crying, but no tears came out.. I expected it, I really expected it. Maybe I’m just not ready to see you leave my life again… I should move on, and not allow myself to be your spare tyre 24/7 again.. It ain’t easy moving on though…

I gotta be strong and stop crying over the same reason. Idk why, and I don’t understand why, I still can’t bring myself to hate you. This time, I wasn’t as hurt as the past few times, cos I’m used to it. I know I’ll be alright after crying for days…

I wished I could bring myself to treat you like how you treat me. I wished I could turn to you when I’ve got no guys around me like you. I wished guys could replace my status like how the girls on the net could…

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Off to work now, meeting Sylvia in the evening for dinner. :-)